A Day With-Out S.M.I.L.E. (✖╭╮✖)

back to work again after 4 days of rest days spent with my beloved

forced myself to wake up in the morning...

stretching myself to workplace...

stressing myself to get as many tasks as possible...

a whole day spent in office without an extra word from me

without the usual smile that i have

feeling lifeless in office...

it's not me...

i'm not living my life...

i'm just surviving there...

Dear gave me a lot of support..

same goes to my 2 beloved sis...

thank you...

really appreciate it

it really meant a lot for me...

i will not give up so easily...

5 months down & 7 more to go...

Kambate Kambate!!!

Laughter vs. Age

i still remember i read an article before...

it's about the amount of laughter vs. our age

while we are still a child,

the average of laughter we had a day is around 150 - 160...

a simple joke or tiny lil thing can make us laugh our heart out

but as we grow up,

our laughter reduced to only 15 times a day...

can you imagine it???

our laughter reduced almost 10 times within all these years...

all the stress & pressure seized our smile & laughter...

for me,

all that can make me smile is when time spent with Dear & family

as for lately,

i even cried when thinking of going to work...

it's been very very stressful being in this company

with overloading workloads...

stress & pressures from all directions...

i really can't take it anymore...

i still remember the last time my heart thumping abnormally 

is when i'm doing my final year in UTAR

this condition came back recently

sometimes i feel like i can't even catch a breath...

this few days spent with Dear helps a lot

but when i back to home again today 

all the symptoms came back again

i tried to hang on to the job till the contract ends

God, please bless me...

grant me with favour... favour with ppl & everything that i do

let me complete the contract then i can leave immediately

Amen~~~

~E.X.H.A.U.S.T.E.D.~

owhhh~~~~

is so late for blogging but sadly,

i just finished 'OT' at home

(P/S: my work are still uncompleted yet)

aikss...

it's been tiring days for this 5 months in the company...

everyday it was like war being at work

any moment, any time... boss will call u in 

& questions u a lot or ridiculous questions

the book 'Magic' asks us to be grateful

& appreciate the very worst thing that happens

bcos before dawn is always the darkest...

without all this bad things,

we wont feel the good ones happening to  us

but

I JUST CAN'T TALK MYSELF TO LIKE MY WORK

it was the worst day in office

my heart was thumping like it's going to stop at any moment...

don't even have the time to have my proper lunch

URGENT! URGENT! URGENT!

Get this done! Get that done! Get EVERYTHING DONE!!

u all think i'm robot meh??

can multitask at some time??

i'm also human...

i also have my limitations...

including my PATIENCE...

time is ticking away

day by day...

week by week...

month by month...

Pray for a better tomorrow...

~ our Baby hard time ~

it's Dear's off days again

this time he came to my place as planned...

Dear met an accident on his way back to Kampar

>.<

he sent his colleague back to Gopeng

then somewhere in the middle, a few cars in front emergency brake

our baby kissed the Triton in front...

ouch...

our Baby's head kemek ad...

skeletal oso come up ad...

ouch...

But luckily,

Dear did not hurt himself

Thank you God for your blessing...

If he's not coming to Kampar,

Dear won't carpool his fren back to Gopeng...

haiz...

too bad our Cameron trip have to delay...

isk isk isk...

but anyway,

we had 4 great days' time together...

appreciate all his efforts & love for me...

Love You Darling...

a sign of ~A.F.F.I.R.M.A.T.I.O.N.~

it's been the 5th month in the company...

the feeling of 'quitting tomorrow' no longer that strong

but 

did not feel 'like the company' neither...

>.<

Mr Boss called me into a short meeting with our co. law counsel 

to discuss about some licensing matter..

Mr Boss praised me in the meeting

saying that he was so impressed by me...

when my Director decided to take me for the post,

he was very doubtful & reluctant as these licensing matters are 

very critical for them...

now that i picked up so fast, he's very impressive

the law counsel also praised me

saying that i'm very hands on...

i really felt happy for some moment...

your compliments is an affirmation for me...

but it doesn't make me like the company more...

i still want to leave the company as soon as possible...

>.<

So Far... Yet So Close...

So far away…

162 kilometres in distance,

but

yet so close…

always in my heart...

So far away…

I cant touch your hand,

I cant feel your breath,

I cant hold you close.

Yet so close…

I can feel you in my heart,

I can see you in my mind,

I can hear you in my ears.

You can go so far away…

you can travel to the ends of the earth…

But as long as I love you…

as long as I have you in my heart…

you will always be close.

For,

As sure as the sun rises,

And the tides will change,

I will always love you,

An you will always be close to my heart...

(=...YoU make Me SMILE...=)

it will be a tough time for us this year ahead...

why???

we gotta be a-part for 7 more months 

(my employment contract ends after that)

all this while we keep in touch through phone...

sms...

phone calls?? 2 - 3 times weekly cos he work in shift...

difficult to suit time for long-chat...

>.<

Dear very unhappy at work

but then he said that I made him Smile...:)

he made me smile too...:)