Mid-Autumn 2012

time flies~~~

last year's mid-autumn, me & Dear still at Penang

so fast,

another Mid-Autumn come...

another typical family gathering

but this year,

we have a new participant... Zhi Him...

Bro's son

it's not easy to baby-sit a child...

roughly 2 hours in the noon + another 3 hours in the night

totally exhausted...

but when he called me 'Gu Jie' for the very 1st time

i was soooo happy...:)

had a great time shooting photos of Him...

<<just like this photo so muchie>>

<<doesn't he look cute??>>

<<playing so happily with Husky>>

<<hmmm...>>

<<owh... pity the cat>>

as usual, Daddy prepared some special dishes for mooncake festival celebration

<<Nam Yu Chicken Wings>>

<<chau-Lor>>

<<2012 collections>>

<<some additional biscuits>>

fever,,, headache...

zzz...

but very happy cos can MC...

no need go work...:P

went to Co's DC for MC

Dr Ong say never see some patient so happy when fall sick...

haha

Bee also fall sick...

heavy flu, he said...

he said he got a big bag of marshmallow for me

so sweet~~~

arrr...

when can meet up with Dear again

how good it will be if he's around me

especially when i fall sick like now...

miss u soooo much

~~Time Flies~~

time flies without us realizing it...

>.<

was looking back at the small gifts that Dear gave to me all this years

then found the bunch of old cinema tickets

which has become our must-have in our 'paktor' list

what a co-incidence then i found out:

we went for Expendables 2 on Monday (20/8/2012)

surprisingly,

we went for the same movie (Part 1, of course) 

on the same date two years ago (20/8/2010)...

same cinema, same theatre, same date, almost the same seats...

it was such a ~Wow~ when i found that out...

love... happiness... disagreements... arguments... 

disappointments... jealousy... 

we have faced all this repeatedly within this 4 years we're together

but we gone through all this with LOVE & FAITH...

as of now,

we only get to meet each other at most 2 - 3 days maybe once or every 2 months

it's short but quality time that we had together

cherishing every single moment together

holding my hand all the time as if I will lost in middle of the crowd

falling asleep with you & waking up by your side...

look forward for our next meet-up

hope that this times of being apart will pass faster

(✿ ♥‿♥)

Quality Time with LOVE

Darl's visiting again this Raya holiday

Our baby Avanza is not fixed yet...

>.<

So his family dropped him down at Kampar

when they pass by while on their way to Taiping...

It's abit troublesome without a car to travel around

Anyway,

We had great time together...

We watched Expendables 2 

And then had our lunch at Sushi King before heading home

Darling with his meal...

he says that he's full drinking green tea...@@

It's tiring

but with His presence around me...

I can only feel Love & Happiness surrounding me...

^.^

He's leaving tomorrow...

Watching him sleeping soundly like a baby...

I starts missing him ad

Till next month only we'll see each other again...

Really hope time passes faster then I can leave this stupid co

Then to have new life with Love...

^_^

~T.I.M.I.N.G.~

~TIMING~

is really important in our life...

to meet the right person at the right TIME...

to be at the right place at the right TIME...

when it comes to job offerings, TIMING is very important too...

when i'm desperately searching for a job,

none of the companies called...

after i accepted another co's offer,

calls keep coming in giving me all sorts of offer...

why don't you all call earlier??

i'm now bound with a contract & it only has 6 months to go...

though i don't really like the company

but i really want to take the challenge...

to leave only after my contract ends...

i was well trained here in how to deal with all sorts of 'monsters & beasts'

i believe it will helps alot in future...

^_^

Happiness vs. Success

it was Li Yi's last day @ the company

before she leaves, she gave us a small card written:

''Success is not the key to Happiness,

Happiness is the key to Success...

If you love what you are doing,

you will be SUCCESSFUL''

this phrase was like a lightning hit right on my head...

do i love what i'm doing now??

am i happy??

if NO,

how can i be successful then??

frankly,

i do not actually hate what i'm doing now

but i do not love it either...

sometimes i really do feel sense of accomplishment when get tasks done

or to get a compliment from boss...

but the everyday heavy workloads

are really giving me a lot of pressures...

headache strikes almost everyday...

tired...

sometimes i even feels my heart thumping like mad & breathing difficulties

but i keep telling myself...

if i can hold on till my contract ends,

i'll be in another level...

now,

i just follow Dear's advise...

no more paper works after working hours...

no matter how late i OT,

emails keep coming in...

it won't stop...

time is never enough to get all the work done...

then why not i just utilise my time to get some rest...

Your Wife or Your Mum??

suddenly got the 'kick' to blog about a news that i've just read from Daily Chilli 

(hell yeah!!! i'm blogging in my office now...:P)

most of the couples;

no matter young or old... will always have a question

(normally those girls will ask the guys la...)

I me & your Mum falls into the water,

who will you save first???

Now Guys,

how will you answer this??

a man in China's Anhui

just chose to save his drowning wife instead of his mother, both in a drowning accident

both the in-laws fell into the 6-metre deep river in a boating activity

when the boat they're on overturned...

Xiao Guo (the husband) reacted instantly as a devoted husband 

when he pulled his wife to the overturned boat 

& pushed her back to the riverbank...

then he dove into the water again 

& grabbed his unconscious mother back to the solid ground...

Xiao Guo's father was mad like hell when he got to know this

saying that he should have saved his mother 1st due to her old age 

& weaker compared to his daughter-in-law

full story can be read here:

http://www.dailychilli.com/news/18995-man-turns-hero-for-saving-wife-over-mum

Now there's a question:

If you are Xiao Guo, would you have made the same decision??

Swollen Gums---Imbalanced Face

ouch~~~

it is so painful & torturing...

at first,

it was a sore throat...

after drinking sis's honey lime

it turns into swollen gums...

arrrgggghhh

swollen gums caused my face to become imbalanced too...

haiz...

worse,

it pains till i can't even sleep at night

was awake at 2.30am ytday

tried to snooze back then wake again around 3 something...

this time,

i dashed to the kitchen,

look for salt to rub on the swollen area...

rinse my mouth with salt water...

put ice bag on it...

tried all the possible to reduce the pain but

STILL... I CAN'T SLEEP...

my last solution ---- Panadol 650

it really helps bcos i fall asleep soon after taking the medicine

unsure it's bcos it relieves the pain @ it makes me sleepy

it really tortures a lot to have swollen gums...

anyone have any idea to cure this asap??

can't eat & even drink properly...

Owhhh

A Day With-Out S.M.I.L.E. (✖╭╮✖)

back to work again after 4 days of rest days spent with my beloved

forced myself to wake up in the morning...

stretching myself to workplace...

stressing myself to get as many tasks as possible...

a whole day spent in office without an extra word from me

without the usual smile that i have

feeling lifeless in office...

it's not me...

i'm not living my life...

i'm just surviving there...

Dear gave me a lot of support..

same goes to my 2 beloved sis...

thank you...

really appreciate it

it really meant a lot for me...

i will not give up so easily...

5 months down & 7 more to go...

Kambate Kambate!!!

Laughter vs. Age

i still remember i read an article before...

it's about the amount of laughter vs. our age

while we are still a child,

the average of laughter we had a day is around 150 - 160...

a simple joke or tiny lil thing can make us laugh our heart out

but as we grow up,

our laughter reduced to only 15 times a day...

can you imagine it???

our laughter reduced almost 10 times within all these years...

all the stress & pressure seized our smile & laughter...

for me,

all that can make me smile is when time spent with Dear & family

as for lately,

i even cried when thinking of going to work...

it's been very very stressful being in this company

with overloading workloads...

stress & pressures from all directions...

i really can't take it anymore...

i still remember the last time my heart thumping abnormally 

is when i'm doing my final year in UTAR

this condition came back recently

sometimes i feel like i can't even catch a breath...

this few days spent with Dear helps a lot

but when i back to home again today 

all the symptoms came back again

i tried to hang on to the job till the contract ends

God, please bless me...

grant me with favour... favour with ppl & everything that i do

let me complete the contract then i can leave immediately

Amen~~~

~E.X.H.A.U.S.T.E.D.~

owhhh~~~~

is so late for blogging but sadly,

i just finished 'OT' at home

(P/S: my work are still uncompleted yet)

aikss...

it's been tiring days for this 5 months in the company...

everyday it was like war being at work

any moment, any time... boss will call u in 

& questions u a lot or ridiculous questions

the book 'Magic' asks us to be grateful

& appreciate the very worst thing that happens

bcos before dawn is always the darkest...

without all this bad things,

we wont feel the good ones happening to  us

but

I JUST CAN'T TALK MYSELF TO LIKE MY WORK

it was the worst day in office

my heart was thumping like it's going to stop at any moment...

don't even have the time to have my proper lunch

URGENT! URGENT! URGENT!

Get this done! Get that done! Get EVERYTHING DONE!!

u all think i'm robot meh??

can multitask at some time??

i'm also human...

i also have my limitations...

including my PATIENCE...

time is ticking away

day by day...

week by week...

month by month...

Pray for a better tomorrow...

~ our Baby hard time ~

it's Dear's off days again

this time he came to my place as planned...

Dear met an accident on his way back to Kampar

>.<

he sent his colleague back to Gopeng

then somewhere in the middle, a few cars in front emergency brake

our baby kissed the Triton in front...

ouch...

our Baby's head kemek ad...

skeletal oso come up ad...

ouch...

But luckily,

Dear did not hurt himself

Thank you God for your blessing...

If he's not coming to Kampar,

Dear won't carpool his fren back to Gopeng...

haiz...

too bad our Cameron trip have to delay...

isk isk isk...

but anyway,

we had 4 great days' time together...

appreciate all his efforts & love for me...

Love You Darling...

a sign of ~A.F.F.I.R.M.A.T.I.O.N.~

it's been the 5th month in the company...

the feeling of 'quitting tomorrow' no longer that strong

but 

did not feel 'like the company' neither...

>.<

Mr Boss called me into a short meeting with our co. law counsel 

to discuss about some licensing matter..

Mr Boss praised me in the meeting

saying that he was so impressed by me...

when my Director decided to take me for the post,

he was very doubtful & reluctant as these licensing matters are 

very critical for them...

now that i picked up so fast, he's very impressive

the law counsel also praised me

saying that i'm very hands on...

i really felt happy for some moment...

your compliments is an affirmation for me...

but it doesn't make me like the company more...

i still want to leave the company as soon as possible...

>.<

So Far... Yet So Close...

So far away…

162 kilometres in distance,

but

yet so close…

always in my heart...

So far away…

I cant touch your hand,

I cant feel your breath,

I cant hold you close.

Yet so close…

I can feel you in my heart,

I can see you in my mind,

I can hear you in my ears.

You can go so far away…

you can travel to the ends of the earth…

But as long as I love you…

as long as I have you in my heart…

you will always be close.

For,

As sure as the sun rises,

And the tides will change,

I will always love you,

An you will always be close to my heart...

(=...YoU make Me SMILE...=)

it will be a tough time for us this year ahead...

why???

we gotta be a-part for 7 more months 

(my employment contract ends after that)

all this while we keep in touch through phone...

sms...

phone calls?? 2 - 3 times weekly cos he work in shift...

difficult to suit time for long-chat...

>.<

Dear very unhappy at work

but then he said that I made him Smile...:)

he made me smile too...:)

♥对的人♥

有人说：

要用一辈子去爱一个人，

太累。。太浪费了。。

人生苦短

应该多尝试新事物。。

连感情也一样吗？

对我而言，

能够用一辈子去爱着和你一样爱你的人

就是最幸福的事了

‘对的人’。。。一个就够了~~~

My Panadol to Cure Longingness

when i thought that i wouldn't able to meet him this month,

God grant me a blessing by send Him for short but valuable 2 days break~~

it was actually his M.C.

Darling has been suffering from sickness (although he recovered but still soar throat)

he went to c the Doc & they gave him 2 days M.C.

he took this opportunity to come see me as he also knew that 

I'm not able to take leave again this month...

>.<'' (stupid company)

although it's merely short 2-days break...

we cherished every second that we have together...

what more can I ask for when??
(it was his Mum's bday on Monday; he did not go home to celeb with his Mum
but instead, he came to me...)

i was so touched when he drove late night from Genting to Kampar after work

(to save a night --- 2moro can spend the day with me)

then he left late at night... to have more time with me...

as usual...

tears filled my eyes when watching him drove off...

arrrggghhh~~~

Darling ask me to tahan for few more months after my contract ends

then we kickstart a new career life together

and to realize our dreams...

he really cares about me so so much...

he fetch me off from work & we went for a buffet on Monday...

and also to send Wei Earn to get her DSLR

^.^

this 2 days, whenever we are together,

he never let go of my hand 

(unless he's driving, but sometimes he drive with my hand held too)...

he'll grip my hand so tightly as if i'm running away..

i really do cherished the moment we had...

& as promised,

we took at least 1 photo together whenever we meet each other

(as a compilation of our album)

a playful one~~

Food Savouring Sat-Urday~~~

it's Agong's Birthday~~

why am I so happy???

lol...

it's rest day la...

can stay at home without going to the war place...

zzz

early in the morning (not that early actually - ad 8.30am)

Daddy got some breakfast for us...

had my all-time-fav...

Kampar Market ~ Fun Zai

accompanied by the best ever... Se Woh chili sauce...

then...

i had a ice-cream cone with my sis(s) & mum...

later then,

we had our lunch (Daddy's all-time-fav Chicken rice)...

then i had my 'sea-coconut, longan & snow fungus' tong sui...

then i had some 'ham kok zai'

then i had some sesame peanut biscuit...

then before i have my dinner,

i finished the rest of the ham kok zai...

at night,

we have our long-time-longed tom-yam claypot yee mee...

OMG~~~

my stomach is full & my mouth is tired...

hahahaha...

thank you for all the foods that brought me so much happiness...

THANK YOU~~~

Catch-Up Moment

Do you wish your another half to be honest to you?

what i mean here is to be honest in everything...

even though it might spoil your relationship for being honest!!!

it was Sunday noon when I board the bus to KL

<again> for interview & also to catch up with Darling~~~

it was a hard time for both of us as he lost his handphone few days ago

haiz... 

he's on his way back to KL from Genting

when I was wondering how can I contact him,

an unknown number called up...

It was HIM!!!

worrying that I'll get lost somewhere,

he borrowed phone from a security guard to ask me where to wait for him

at night,

we went to Setia City Mall to get a new pair of shoes for him

the mall is damn huge & crowded

but according to Mr Lau,

the standard is not up yet

as the people are all not dressed up nicely...

not like mid-valley where everyone is so well dressed-up

the next day,

we went for our interview

& spent whole day outdoor...

phew...

anyhow, i realized one thing here that i actually enjoyed the city life

although it's hectic & crowded

but when i was sitting at Starbucks waiting for Darling,

i actually enjoyed that moment so much...

We then went to repair his lappie @ Low Yat Plaza

we had the most expensive car-park fees here

can u believe it??

RM32.00 for not more than 4 hours...

@@''

Darling is almost gonna break the machine when he checked on the fees

haha...

we then had a typical back-to-home-in-a-jam journey

where we did a lot of stupid things in the car while waiting for the traffic

as usual,

we had our dinner @ Boston Klang

our fav place to have 'Hokkien Mee' & 'mantis shrimp' when we back to Klang

yummy~~~

Dear suggest to have our movie time the next day 

b4 i head off home as it's bit late & we're both tired

Marvel of Avengers

a great movie & also funny

hahaha...

this is the 1st time we had so many junk food for a movie

popcorn + hotdog + potato chips + soft drink...

can't believe that he let me buy all this...:P

it's ad 5pm when the movie ends

Dear rushed me to bus station worrying that I can't catch a bus home

or i'll reach home late...

so sweet of him

the first time he said that he feel sad sending me home

owh~~~

feel like wanna cry tat time...

misses him so much too being dunno how many miles apart...

tat's how my 2 & half days was spent with my love...❣

还是学生的我

回想以前还是一名学生的时候：

我曾经反叛过~~

我曾经活跃过~~

曾经被吹捧~~

也曾经被冷落...

小学的我，

从一个娇小怕事的小女孩

演变成一个又叛逆有反叛，让爸爸妈妈摸不着头脑的女儿

从全班考第三，跌去第十三，再跌去第二十三...

爸妈为我掉下伤心的泪...

但我却无动于衷.

还记得在五年级的那年，

我们都闯了大祸！

惊动了校方，差点要见父母。

那是的我，

很怕....很后悔....

让后因为我们都是第一班的学生，

校方只是口头警告了几句也没有追究下去

从那天起，

我没有远离我那些朋友

只是没有在参与那些不良活动

小六UPSR我尽然拿了全课A...

还记得成绩放榜的那天，我没上学去！

都是因为前一天刚从毕业旅行回来，

太累了，早上睡过头.

早上10点，家里电话不停的在响

同学们都打电话来告诉我这个好消息

有一点难以自信...

明天一早到学校，

第一时间跑到去礼堂外面的布告板

看到自己的名被涂上黄色的highlight

真的很开心...

终于做了一件能让爸妈骄傲的事!

进了中学，

我又演变成一个很活跃，带一点点顽皮的学生。

因为UPSR全科A的关系，

很自然究竟的第一版。

也参加了很多课外活动，赢了很多的比赛

换回来的就是学业退步。

从第一版跌去第二版

爸爸生气的很，立刻把我所有课外活动都停止了

初中二那年是我最开心的一年，

一阵班都是疯疯癫癫的朋友...

经历了很多很多开心，欢笑，吵架甚至被副校罚提5kg的铁球

初三在Prefect里就开始被重用

当任很多活动的计划团体

最难忘就是母校百年庆典！

用了几个月跳课，跳补习班的时间来做筹备

很累，但是很有成就感。

因为这庆典，我们跟校长，副校长们的关系也弄到很好

从此就常常被叫去office喝咖啡 （聊天）

因为是Prefect的秘书，我都有DC Room的钥匙

星期五，开周会是

我们一般朋友（Prefect Board）都会躲在里面

说说笑，打发时间。

那时后，真的很开心，朋友之间的互动和关怀

让我人生充满了爱，很温馨...

到我进了College

因为英文程度好的关系，在学习方面比其他朋友来的容易

弄成生变都会有一大半的同学围绕着

慢慢我们就有了我们自己的gang

那时候，

我真的很像一个小红人

有什么大小事情，都会来找我

在那里我认识了几位真的很要好的朋友

真心的朋友~~~

有福同享，有难同党

我们疯过，我们认真过，我们换皮过，我们吵架过，我们也和好过

这点点滴滴都成为了我们成长的一部分

一个很重要的部分...

到了我学生生涯最后的一段路

念大学的时候~~

没想到会是我最不开心的一段经历

因为某些三姑六婆的原因，

弄到我们原本的gang都散了

搞得你很他，他很她...

以前的朋友，现在变成擦肩而过的陌生人

很可惜，很可悲...

就是不明白，这些闲人到底在想什么

你们这样破坏别人的友谊对你有什么好处？

难道别人长得比你美，家里比你有钱，追求着比你多

也是她的错吗？（当然不是在讲我啦）

真的很难理解...

就这样，匆匆十几年的时间过去了

每一个经历，每一个创的祸

都是让我成长的一课

虽然现在已经不是学生的身份

但

我们不会因此而停止学习

人生就是不断的学习

不断的提升自己

不断的为我们的人生写下不同的故事和经历

To Hold On or To Let Go

since i voiced out my intention to leave the company,

they (my Director & Mr C - Logistic Manager sitting next to me)

have been 'directly & indirectly' asking me to stay..

saying that I need money... I need to take care of my parents, never let them down...

bla---bla---bla---

Yeah, I have signed a one-year contract with the co

but I really can't stand being here any longer...

the colleagues are great...

friendly...helpful.. & as they told me in the interview (there's no office politics here)

however,

the co's policy & its management are driving me away!!

>.<

i still remember my Degree Thesis - Reducing Turnover Rate by Employee Retention

there are several aspects that employees look for in a job...

Monetary.. Job satisfaction.. Job Environment.. Job recognition & so on...

as for my current situation,

i have neither of the above in my current job...

They feel that my salary is high enough --- but there's others offering more, much more

They feel that my job can help me learn a lot of new things --- yeah!! it's true but everyday i'm doing the same things

They even asked me not to run away from the problem... Over come it!!!

i was thinking about this statement for a very very long time...

am i running away from the problem??

i don't have any problem there, 

yes it's true that sometimes the overloaded tasks really kills me but i still can handle it...

what i can't tahan is the way the mgmt treated the employees...

so so so so unfair treatment...

u call yourself a leading company but u never know how to appreciate your employees!!!

just save that few hundreds ringgit if u're that unwilling to give them KPI...

accounts' payment late, got complained --- no KPI

but have u ever realized why are payments late???

it's bcos U, the boss doesn't want to sign the cheques!!!

how to make payment like this???

when get complained, cut the accounts ppl KPI

where got such kind of crap!!

this is really crap...

bringing in personal things for company staff to settle for U

everything u name it urgent...

when things not done, it's our problem...

no wonder all the employees are newbies with less than 2 years experience with the co when u are already a 30 year-old company...

can't u see there's a big problem with u policy & system??

Mr C asked me to hold on & after i overcome this,

I am a better person...

But for me,

working is not my whole life!!!

i don't wan to be a slave!!

i want to live my life the way i want..

a very good quote i saw in FB few days ago:

''STOP CHASING THE WRONG THING 

TO GIVE A CHANCE 

TO THE RIGHT THING TO COME TO YOU''

this is so true & inspires me to take this irreversible step...

TO QUIT!!!

and to chase on what I really want...